This is my first time to this web. I lost my husband, Dec. 5,2001. I am having a very difficult time adjusting. I want to be able to talk to other people with same problem.

My father let me on to your site so I decided to take a look. I hope we both can find some answers and maybe even a little hope that my mom is not truly gone from us forever. Karen Ann Craig Devoted Wife and World's Greatest mother and forever deeply missed. Our lives will never be the same without you. She was taken from us all to soon on Sept. 22, 2001. We love you mom.

My father passed away a week after my only daughter got married 3 years ago. Soon after his death, she had a dream that she had a party in her home and while greeting guests and old man in a light blue shirt walked in and gave her a hug. She said that she did not know who he was until he hugged her, then she knew it was my dad. She ran into the bedroom and yelled, "Mom, PaPa's here, he's alive" and she said in the dream I responded "Well, I knew that!" She also dreamed she walked into the Country Club and saw him sitting whith friends having a martini and he jumped up and wanted to take her for a ride in his golf cart. So off they went and suddenly they were on a ranch/farm, and he spread his arms out and said "This is where I live now." She felt as if he was saying, I am ok and I wanted you to know. My mother has "seen" my dad 3 different times in their house. The first time, she was sitting on the sofa reading and realized she smelled pipe tobacco smoke and looked up to see him sitting on the love seat! The next time she "dreamed" she saw him come into the bedroom and hand her a cup of coffe. When she said "Honey aren't you having any?" he disappeared! The third time she was dozing on the sofa and something woke her up and as she looked at the wall in front of her, it disappeared and became a blue sky and an old wharf stretching out over water. My father was standing there looking out and had paints and brushes in his hands as if to say "I am doing what I love." (He was a wild-life artist in life). He looked younger and had all of his hair. Other things have happened. This is a small example. I believe in ADCs, I really do!

I found your website in the back of a book i have called 'Healing Grief' by James Van Praagh. I lost my soul mate and my one true love 2 years ago from a motorcycle accident at the age of 26 on March 13 2000.When he died,a part of me died to and i wonder if i will ever be the same again now that he has gone.I am in constant denial and dont want to believe that he is gone. I have had 2 similar experiences that make me think he is here by my side but i am sceptical. I have not seen or heard anything that could be him and i only wish i could hear his voice and see his beautiful smile one more time. I think that would help my road to recovery. I am always depressed and wake up every morning thinking about suicide. Just so i can be with him forever as i though we would be. I never got to say goodbye.I was unaware of the funeral as i was working away. I found out by reading the newspaper. The pain is unbearable and i dont know how to cope. Every day is a struggle not having him in my life and i just want to die. I just wish i knew for sure that he is with me and i wonder why some people can have the gift of being a medium and some cant. Your book sounds like one that i would like to read.I just hope i can still get it being in australia and all. Thankyou. I think people like you are angels as you try to help those that are left behind to deal with the pain of reality.

Today is my mother's birthday. She passed away a little more than 7 months ago on July 26, 2001. Before her illness, we went everywhere together. She was my best friend and it's been very hard not having her here physically. I miss her so much. As I was sitting here tonight thinking about her, something drew me to this website. I had not heard of your book nor did I know that websites like this existed but after reading other's comments of how comforting it is, I plan to visiting here often and I definitely want to read your book too. I've felt my Mom's presence from time to time and I want to believe she's here with me in spirit. It would be nice to know if she really is. Thanks for giving me this opportunity to express my feelings. To Helen Bouquin...Happy Birthday Mom, I love you. Dottie