For several days I have been pleading with my mom and dad for some sort of sign that they're close. Nothing. Another health scare has popped up, with another biopsy coming up soon. Tears have flowed and as hard as I try I can't seem to stop crying. Oh how I'd love an ADC from them telling me it will all be fine, not to worry. Why don't they come to you when you really need them? Right now I'd love nothing better than to fall into their arms and let them take some of this worry off of me. Woke up this morning and knew that I'd dreamed of them but couldn't remember what. That set off more tears. I even tried to go back to sleep and re-start the dream, prayed and begged that I would. But that never happens, at least not for me. When I get in an overload of worry my thoughts always go to them. Not sure if they're aware of what's going on with us still here on this troubled earth. But it sure would be nice to get a sign when you want one, not just when they decide to. I know it's silly for a woman my age to still want her mama and daddy, but that's just where I am tonight
Sorry, I seem to be rambling again. I want everyone here to know that although I might not post that often, I do keep up with the board and always, ALWAYS I include the people here in my prayers. We share a bond and we understand each other when other people would dismiss us as being silly. Little do they know, eh?
So, for those that believe in prayer, I ask to be included in yours during this ordeal of mine. As thrilling as it would be to be reunited with my parents, I'm not ready to leave my daughter. Not yet.
Love and hugs to everyone here!
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