Shining Light,
You sound so much like me. I do the same. I have avoided all the places we used to go together, too many memories. The entire town we lived in together has nothing but memories. Just driving down the street, every street, brings tears and sadness. At least that part of the journey is getting a little better. I try to superimpose new memories over old. But just the ones that offer the least pain. There are others I do not know if I will ever be able to handle. I know everyone handles this stuff differently, but my husband was my life, breath and heart. I am a puzzle piece that does not fit anywhere. I know he would not want me to be like this, but it is my makeup. I love very deeply and am a loyal friend forever. I don't feel like the until death do us part applies to me. I do think this guy is going to be stuck with me for eternity!
Thank you for commiserating with me. |
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